Good evening everyone.

I am tired, but I am okay. It is the day before the last day of Ramadan. This Ramadan has been something else. I started the month feeling disconnected from God and not feeling the blessings of Ramadan. It made me sad because I love the spiritual ness of Ramadan. I decided to devote myself even more during the second half of Ramadan. I decided to pray more and listen to lectures about the different passages in the Quran. I signed up for a program specializing in Quran studies, Bayinahh tv. It made all the difference. I listened as much as I could on. I would listen on my drive to work and home, at the gym, on my walks, in the shower, and honestly, whenever I had free time. Instead of watching tv or listening to music or podcast, I just let myself be surrounded by the word of God. It made a difference. I felt so much better, and I felt way more connected. I struggled, though, with controlling my temper. I snapped at my family member more than usual. It might have just been because I felt exhausted from work and fasting. Still, I tried to center myself as much as possible and to do better.

From my studies of the Quran, I learned so much about my faith. Whenever I heard “Lord of the Worlds,” my heart raced, and I thought ALIENS! If you know me personally, you know that I love anything about outer space. Lol.

Through all of my trials this Ramadan, I learned and am still learning to have confident trust. It is hard, but something I want to keep practicing.

I am excited to return to a regular sleep routine and not wake up at 4am for breakfast. Also, I am looking forward to just having water throughout the day.

Ramadan Mubarak & I know it’s early but Eid Mubarak!

Cheers,

Frshta