Today is the first day of my long Summer break. At first, I was very excited to have two months off this Summer. I haven’t had a break in so long. The down side is that my position does not get paid for the Summer. So here I am, two months without my full paycheck and only surviving off of my part time gig work. I will be okay though.

I was excited to spend the Summer writing and to finally after many years make headway towards my novel. I plan on going to a writing retreat tomorrow, June 16. I am hoping I can lock in and get some of the work done but it’s hard.

I spend so much time staring at the computer screen not knowing where to start. It is mostly my lack of focus. I can’t focus. Sometimes it feel like my brain is like anything but this. Have you felt that way? I will not let myself crumple because of my brains lack of discipline.

Brain, you will be disciplined this Summer.

Other than writing, I hope to exercise, eat healthy and work on some paintings. I think also doing nothing will be okay some days. I need to be okay with that and not fill up my time.

Today, I woke up early and tidied up my home. I headed to the kitchen and threw in two slices of turkey bacon and a chicken sausage onto the pan. I walked away and took a phone call and used the restroom.

Guess what? I burnt the turkey bacon and for the first time since moving into my home, I turned on the fire alarm on my own accord. There has only been one other time that the first alarm turned on and that was once during the middle of the night when I first moved in. It spoke to me and said “Fire.” It frightened me. At my mom’s, we didn’t have fire alarms.

So here I am, running up the stairs with my step ladder because smoke rises obviously right? Lol. I climb my step ladder and luckily I reached the fire alarm but what do I do? How can I be 34 years old but not know how to turn off a fire alarm? I was still on the phone. My voice a panic. How do I turn this stupid thing off?! “Turn off! Stop it! There is no fire!” My brain suddenly realized that shouting at the fire alarm was pointless. So I pressed the button to hush it up. It stopped but then started again. I took the battery out but it was still going. Actually, after that it wouldn’t stop no matter how much I kept pressing the button. Was the fire alarm possessed? How is it functioning without batteries? Maybe I should stick it back in.

I tried to yank it off but that was challenging too. This was all while the damn fire alarm is blaring at me and almost making me deaf from how loud the siren was. I quickly googled it. How do I unhook this thing? Google told me to press the sides of where the devices wires are and this is a horrible description honestly. Finally, I was about to unhook it. I got down from the step ladder and dashed into my room and stuck the stupid thing under the pillow. Will the fire fighters show up now? Is that how this works? It stopped blaring. I walked to the hallway and looked at the mess on the floor from yanking it out of the ceiling.

Great.

Let me go get the broom.

Happy First Day of Summer break from a 34 year old who doesn’t know how fire alarms work.

Xoxo

Frshta