The heart wants what it wants. ‘

To be continued…

My eyes are heavy with sleep.

I want to pray but my eyes are drooping.

The heart wants sleep right now even though I should pray.

My heart needs prayers.

Negativity in the walls of my home.

My mother stares at all of us with a blank stare.

Mama, how do you do it? How do you put up with everything?

I want to give up so many times a day. Lets just be lazy. What is the point of anything?

God, show me the way.

My mother’s patience even annoys me.

I called her a flea today because she had so many bug bites.

My eyes burn from the shampoo I used to wash my hair.

Momma I am in my head. I don’t know how to get out of it.

Dear Allah,

I know I am not perfect. I know I sin every single moment of the day. My clothes are not as modest as they could be. My obedience can be better. God I am at your mercy. God I am lost and I am trying to let go and let you lead me. I have faith but I am working on trust. God help me. Show me the way. Guide me. God thank you for everything you have given me. I am blessed and I need to be grateful. Allah, bring me the passion.

Amen

~Frshta