I kept going back and forth today about writing a blog.

I woke up at 5am and I was wide awake. I convinced myself to sleep 20 more mins and I woke up tired. I should have just stayed up.

I really wanted to just sleep in but no. I can’t.

I headed to my workout class and although we were all tired…we got it done. The last 2mins were the most difficult. I felt like vomiting.

I drove home and got ready for work. I had a cup of oatmeal and packed some fruits and veggies as my snack.

I felt really pretty this morning after the work out. My cheeks were a bit flushed from the cardio and my hair was not as frizzy. But, more than my appearance, my heart felt happy. My spirits were high and the sun was shining. I love you SUN. It was such a beautiful day.

Somewhere in the day, my energy shifted slightly and I felt it. I didn’t feel pretty anymore and my body was bothering me. More than anything my mind was bothering me.

So, I distracted myself because overthinking does nothing. It is a waste of time and energy. I read a book during my free time at work today. I did not let myself scroll the internet or just be lost in my thoughts. No, I refuse to me a victim of myself and I will try my best to not fall down that useless hole. I will end up in the hole again but I will try my best not too. Life has ups and downs hence…sadness is inevitable but I’ve been feeling so good and I don’t want to loose that feeling.

I had a decent lunch but I also had two cookies. And lets not talk about the burger I had for dinner.

I have been getting lazy with my workouts and food. There are so many sweets at home and I can’t help it and lets not forget the monthly hormones.

I really need to get back on track though. I am proud of myself though… I went for a run on Sunday…and I ran most of the route…it was like a 20min run and then 10mins of walking.

I have not missed a day of my workout tho. 5 days a week is still going strong but the food can be much better. It’s not horrible but it can be better.

Tomorrow, is going to be a long dayyy. I literally have to micromanage my time to get everything done but I feel happiest when I am productive so thank you Allah.

I thank God today for the confidence I felt during some parts of the day. Made me feel like my younger self. I thank God for the love I felt today. More than anything I thank God for my existence and this beautiful but temporary world.

Allah knows best.

~frshta