• #51 losers

    The first time I ever saw my eldest brother drinking was a shock to me. I idealized him and it broke my heart. I even cried about it because it scared me. He was never a heavy drinker but it would get worse. My brother was the American dream. He was an immigrant and worked… Read more

  • #50 Fourth of July

    Fourth of July has always been a strange holiday for me. My brother Yama, was born on July 3. Every year, we celebrated his birthday on the fourth of July. I remember one of his last birthdays, my sister and I got his some finches. We got him a huge cake. When we were younger,… Read more

  • #49 empty words

    It has been hard to write lately. I am not sure why. I do know that I feel like a lack of audience or audience interaction does affect my motivation. When people engage or there are a lot of views, it makes me want to write more and it makes me want to connect. Also,… Read more

  • #48 Grumpy

    I woke up to dark cloud outside of my window. I really wanted to see the sun. I woke up with my legs and feet aching. I was in a bad mood. I am not sure why. Grouchy and grumpy like the Grinch. I spent most of the day being a bad mood. Then I… Read more

  • #47 Checkpoints

    Sobriety Checkpoints I just saw someone post online that on some L.A. street there is a check point and to be careful. She put an annoyed face emoji because apparently checkpoints upset her. She also said “urg their back again.” So I am confused about why this annoyed her. But, she isn’t the first to… Read more

  • #46 Purpose

    #46 Purpose

    Purpose Let’s talk about purpose. I have had this empowering epiphany about life. I am not sure where this came from. It just happened. I have been writing on this blog how I had moments of extreme depression or sadness because my friend Tracy claims that I am not classified as a depressed person. But… Read more