Hi everyone; I want to write this week’s blog about being intentional. I have spent many years trying to figure out the best path for my goals, and this year I have come to terms with the fact that I am all out of ideas. I am free from my expectations and will allow my heart, soul, and existence to flow freely like ocean waves. I have no control over anything but my actions. I choose to be free.No strings attached.
For the longest time, I kept choosing paths I thought were right for me for many reasons. The reasons vary from my parents, being practical or my anxieties, and so on. I always tried to do what I thought would be suitable and lead me to success, but what I did was keep myself from my full potential in so many different life categories. Now, I want to take that pressure off of me of what success means in my life. I don’t just mean work. I feel this way about a lot of aspects in my life. I am proud of myself. I have healthier friendships because I took the pressure off, and it was really challenging. I want to spread the same mindset in other areas of my life to be my best authentic self.
So, God, it’s me, Frshta. I love you so much. Thank you for everything. God, I want you to lead the next steps in my life. Guide me, God. What do you want me to do? I have powerful moments of inspiration, but none of it makes out into anything. Inspiration hits me so hard, but then it fades. More than anything, I want to be intentional in my next moves, God. Do I work with refugees? Do I Keep trying to teach college classes? Should I teach more ESL classes in the evening? Should I push harder to work at a coffee shop or to open one? Should I take a tap dancing class? Should I write a play? Should I interview folks for a new YouTube channel? Should I keep writing for the blog? What path should I take? Or is all this garbage, and is there something better for me? God, I am excited but scared of disappointing myself again. You know my God. Please guide me Allah.