It has been such a long time since I have felt okay during this time of the year. It is always difficult for me. The short days and long times bring back some dark memories and sometimes it brings out the darkness that resides in me. Darkness that causes me to spiral into grief and…
#212 stagnant
The definition of stagnant is “(of a body of water or the atmosphere of a confined space) having no current or flow.” Have you ever felt stagnant? When I looked at the definition of stagnant, I was surprised that water was being used on the definition. I have been wanting to go back to swimming…
#211 A Thanksgiving Story
PainWhat does pain look like?What color does it shine?Is it circular or square?Can I squeeze it?How does it create that gut-wrenching feeling?How does it bring tears out of your eyes? Marcel plays classical music loudly to drown out his pain. He sits quietly on his dining room table. A fresh pie sits on his kitchen…
#210 kindergarten blues
I have lost my voice. I opened up a new kindergarten class last week. I was not looking forward to teaching these munchkins because kindergarten is exhausting. The school pulled out four to six students from the other five kindergarten classes and put them in one class. Unfortunately, kindergarten at this school is insane. There…
#209 colors & vaccines
Here is a word vomit. I am going to be opening up a new kindergarten class at the school that I work for. Kindergarten is a magical time for kids and parents, and it can be atrocious for the teachers. That age is hard to manage because the kids are so excited about everything and…
#207 Ding Dong Ditch: A Haunted School
I’ve been feeling inspired lately. It might be the one rainy day in Los Angeles or the spooky season. Maybe it's that my workplace seems even more spooky with the yellow and red leaves flowing with the wind all over the playground and little children playing. As a substitute teacher, I move around a lot…
#206 i am not moving fast enough
Every feel like you aren't moving fast enough? My forehead wrinkles are deepening and I can't catch a break. Will I catch a break when all my beauty is gone? The deepening lines are my forehead make me nervous. They remind me that time will run out. This week I felt like I have so…
#199 sing us a song piano girl 🎹
When I was a little girl I told my mommy and daddy I really want to learn how to play the piano. Unfortunately, we didn’t have the money. One day my mama and I walked to SavOn, which is now CVS on Sepulveda Blvd. I can’t remember why we were there probably need to pick…
#198 things that made me feel
Moments that made me feel this week. My therapist and I tried a new form of therapy. We were actually just goofing around but it felt good. I told him how sometimes I like to sing about my problems in the car. Sometimes it’s the only way I can express myself. I’ve only sang about…
#196 a full bathtub
My best friend gifted me a bath bomb and I’ve never used one before. Believe it or not I don’t really like to take bathes because they take a lot of time and I’m usually on the run. A nice hot shower usually does it for me. Oh and I also hate how when I…
The Frshta Show 